Some cosplayed pictures from Halloween. I turned myself into a ghostly bride. Scary, alluring, and beautiful.
⼀些万圣节的cosplay照⽚。我扮成了幽灵新娘 ——可怕的，诱⼈的和美丽的。
By dancing as a female figure with dramatic makeup, mysterious face, and scarred cheeks, I was expressing and releasing the pain and suffering inside my body. Somehow an alluring yet hauntingly innocent beauty was revealed.
我带着戏剧化的妆容，神秘的脸庞，和伤痕累累的脸颊，以一个女性的形象舞蹈，我舒展着肢体，又表达和释放着我身体内在的痛苦。一种迷人的，但令人难以忘怀的纯真之美就这样展现出来了。
From another perspective, it’s the creation of art, collaborating with a sensitive artist/photographer who has directed the use of lighting and elements of the makeup and apparel, as well as elements of movement, while still letting me flow freely within the frame. The photo-shoot employed the human body, makeup, special headwear, and costume to express emotions and feelings common to the human experience —— love and fear; the pursuit of truth, and demonization; needing help while feeling woe and doubting human nature; trusting the ghosts and spirits instead; being mischievous and alluring; doubting what is shown on the surface in this 3-D reality; creating an illusion and playing with it…
另一个角度来看，这是一个艺术创作。我与一个有创造力的，艺术工作者/摄影师合作，他指导了灯光的使用，化妆和服装，及部分动作的元素，同时我仍然可以在框架内自由流动。我们使用人体，化妆，特殊的头饰和服装来表达人类共同的情感和感受——
关于爱和伤痕，关于追求真理却被伤害和妖魔化，需要帮助却同时感到悲伤并怀疑人类的本性，反而信任鬼魂和灵魂，关于变得淘气，装扮得诱人，关于怀疑所有存在于这三维现实的表象，关于创造一个幻象然后玩儿它…
During the process of the dance, it’s perfectly allowing the body movements to express the emotions flowing with the heart, about totally trusting in oneself, the body and the photographer… in fact, as quoted from the photographer Martin Gray, “It was fun making these pictures with Yiru. Playing with light and mood and shape and form, to mystical and mysterious effect. There is such power in imagination. We should embrace it when we can.”
在舞蹈的过程中，是完美地让身体的动作表达出内心流动的情感，是对自己的身体、对摄影师的完全信任。事实上，正如摄影师Martin Gray所说，“和Yiru一起进行这场拍摄很有趣，我们玩儿光线、玩儿情绪、形状和形式，达到神秘而又超凡的效果。想象力就是有这样的力量。我们应该把握机会拥抱它。”
Imagination is real. What we imagine is actually happening. That is how powerful our minds are. Initially, what we imagine happens in the non-physical dimension.If we then imagine the same thing repeatedly, and particularly if we infuse strong emotions into the image, we may draw it into our physical experience.
想象是真实的。我们所想象的事物实际上正在发生，这就是我们思想的力量。最初，我们所想象的事物在非物质的世界中发生。如果我们重复不断地想象同样的事情，尤其是当对那些形象不断地注入强烈的情绪，那么我们就有可能将它带入我们物质世界的现实。
During the dance, somehow I felt I was much more than this human, this one body mind. I am also my soul.
在舞蹈中，我似乎觉得，我不仅仅是这个人的身体，这个拥有一个身体的心智。我更是我的灵魂。
When I was viewed as this one body mind only, I was often seen as flawed, limited, and lacking in power and worth. Re-membering oneself as a soul means calling what we are infinitely powerful, and of infinite worth.
当我仅仅被视为拥有一个身体的心智，我常常被认为是有缺陷的，是很局限，缺乏力量和价值。重新忆起自己做一个灵魂的存在，意味着召唤出那个拥有无限的力量，无限的价值的自己。
Indeed, that is the truth. There is nothing that is flawed, or to be fixed. There never is. It simply seems to be that way because of mental judgements that have to do with the human collective. Individuals constantly find themselves faced with value systems, with beliefs and judgements that do not correspond to theirs. They therefore think of themselves as bad or wrong. Part of the process of re-membering is to understand one’s full responsibility for the creation of one’s own life and stop making such self-judgements.
事实上，真相是：没有什么东西是残缺的，或者需要被修正的，从来都没有。这被只是视为是事实，是因为我们心智上的评断不得不受到人类集体意识的影响。我们个人总是不断地发现自己要面对那些价值体系，那些实际上与我们的内在并不相符的信念和评断。因此，我们认为自己是坏的，或者是错的。而重新忆起（自己作为灵魂的存在）的一部分过程就是去理解，我们每个人对于创造自己的生命有着全部的责任，并且停止去继续这样负面的自我评判。
Most of us have moments where we feel small or unimportant, in which we wonder about the true value of ourselves, and whether what we are doing is of real enduring importance.
我们每个人都会有些时刻，感觉自己是渺小或者不重要的，我们会怀疑自己真实的价值，怀疑我们正在做的事情是否真的有持久的意义。
You matter. You are vitally important. It is through you, the physical self, that your soul and by extension the entire universe, evolves. I believe that each one of our thoughts, words, and actions is shaping and reshaping the reality of our body, and its frequencies are vibrating towards the whole planet earth and entire universe, effecting the evolution of the entire world – even you cannot see its effect instantly with your five senses.
你是有影响的，你是非常非常重要的。就是通过你，这个物质的你，你的灵魂以及整个宇宙正在演进。我相信我们的每一个思想，每一个言语以及行动都是在不断塑造和重塑着我们自己身体的现实。而这所有的震动所产生的频率扩散向整个地球和整个宇宙，影响着整个世界的演进，即使我们现在无法用自己的五感来感知到这些变化。
The purpose of showing the scars and expressing the wounds is to heal, but to heal from this point of view is to “make whole again”. To see as one, which has been previously seen as separate.
展示伤疤和表达创伤的目的是为了疗愈，但从这个角度来看，疗愈是为了“再次完整”（make whole again)—— 正如，曾经“爱”和“伤害”是被看作分开的，如今将它们看作为一体的。
Healing results in the serenity of permitting…allowing. Allowing is a form of pre-mastering, just as during our process of making the art of the dance and the photographs —— I am not a professional dancer, and I only learned to dance through looking at the dancer on the screen and then allowing myself to dance freely with the flow of my emotions and feelings of the body. I never learnt how to collaborate with photographers either, but we made the perfect artistic pictures together by playing with light and shape creatively, during which we discovered a “perfect allowing”.
疗愈的结果是完美的允许（perfect allowing）所带来的平静。允许是一种预掌握（pre-mastering）的形式，就像我们在创作这个舞蹈和照片的艺术过程中一样——我不是一个专业的舞者，我只是通过看着屏幕上的舞者学习的舞蹈，然后我让自己自由地跳舞，让我的身体随着情绪和感觉流动。我也从未学习过如何与摄影师合作，但我们通过创造性地发挥灯光和形状的效果，一起制作出完美的艺术照片，这就是“完美的允许”。
One will never arrive at mastering the creative process without allowing whatever happens during the creative process. Therefore, allowing a low frequency emotion is as important as allowing a high-frequency emotion, in order to ride ways where there arevery high, and very low emotions. The goal was not to even out, which unfortunately seems to be the goal for many humans who use medications. The goal was to arrive at a point where one could be joyful and excited at even very low emotional frequency. The purpose was for her to ride up and down and then dis-engage with it, so that she is fine with whatever will be.
如果不允许在创造过程中发生任何事情，一个人永远不会掌握创造过程。因此，允许低频的情绪，和允许高频的情绪一样重要，这样才能在可能有非常高和非常低的情绪的地方同样运转自如。事实上，我们的目标不应是为了将情绪平均化，虽然，不幸的是，这似乎是许多使用药物的人的目标。我们的目标是到达一个境界，在这个境界下，一个人可以在非常低的情绪频率下依然感到快乐和兴奋。这样做的目的是让你能够体验所有的情绪，然后脱离它们，这样你就可以接受发生的任何事情。