Dear all, I am Yiru Wang. Many of you may have known me during the course. I connected with Edward live during his epic bonus call in November, during which I talked about my feelings of been suppressed by the university authorities and not able to conduct my spiritual healing work alongside my academic job. I realized that many of you deeply resonate with what I have experienced. I have connected with some of you personally here. As more people starting to pm me, I realised that still a lot more people are interested to hear about my changes after the live session with Edward, even through I have already shared it in our last call. I am now writing it all down here, hoping my stories can help give light to many of you.
亲爱的各位，我是Yiru Wang。你们中的许多人可能已经在课程中认识我——去年11月，在爱德华的史诗级福利疗愈会议中，我与他进行了现场视频联线。在此期间，我谈到了我被大学权威压制的感觉和感到不能在学术工作之外做有关精神疗愈工作。你们当中的和多人与我的遭遇产生了共鸣。而我也已亲自与你们中的一些人取得联系。随着联系我的人增多，我意识到还有更多的人对我自从那次的现场会议后对我的变化感兴趣，即使我已经在通话中分享了它。现在，我把都它写在这里，希望我的故事能给你们带来光亮。
In the clearing session with Edward, we focused on the issue that I felt been suppressed by the university authorities, in not being able to pursue my spiritual business. He did short-cut forms with me, and at the end, he mentioned that I should also do some long-form clearings. So after that, with the new insights from the session with him and also from the master practitioner, I started to do long forms for myself. I realized that the feeling of being suppressed (by authorities) actually related to my childhood experiences of being separated from my birth parents and be raised by my foster parents from infancy to almost five years old, in which I never dare to ask for what I really needed and wanted, because I did not feel that I was worth it as a foster child. I always tried to behave like a ‘good girl’ in order to please others and always hide my own real desires and emotions.
在与爱德华的（创伤）疗愈会议中，我们专注于我感到被大学权威压制的问题，而无法去追求我的精神疗愈事业。在现场，他为我做了捷径疗愈法，在疗愈的最后，他提到我仍应该做一些深度清理。因此，在那之后，我在从他那里和大师级修行者得到的新见解的指导下，开始为自己做深度清理。我意识到，这种被（权威）压制的感觉，其实与我童年时期与亲生父母分离，从婴儿时期到近五岁期间被养父母抚养长大的经历有关，在这段经历里，我从不敢要求我真正需要和想要的东西——因为作为一个寄养在别人家的孩子，我觉得自己不值得。我总是表现得像个“乖乖女”，总是隐藏自己的真实需求和情感，以取悦我非血缘关系的父母。
I then realized this not only affected my spiritual sideline work, but also many other aspects of my life, including always finding it difficult to express myself in new environments and often been bullied or ostracised by others (even by students). As I deepened the healing process for myself, I felt that a lot of suppressed anger and sadness deeply inside of me surfaced. Previously, I also knew the notion of setting boundaries for myself, but energetically I wasn’t able to do it at all every time in the real situation, as the old me have already been deeply intrenched with the old pattern and there were cell memories. But with the deepening practice of CK, the energies and emotions at the karmic and energetic level trapped deep inside just started to move again, as I give more compassion to myself the emotions started to flow and my anger surfaced in a healthy way and I started to show my anger and express my feelings directly and consciously in front of people, including towards students and colleagues on archaeological sites. So I started to show my authentic self more. This really brings lots of benefits because as I changed my attitude they also changed their attitudes towards me and showed more respect to me. On other occasions and parties, I also turned from a shy, always hiding-in-corner girl to a more confident, talkative young professor. That’s one of the major change I had.
然后我意识到，这不仅影响了我的精神疗愈的事业，还影响了我生活的许多其他方面。比如，在一个新的环境中，我总是感到难以表达自己，并且经常被他人（甚至学生）欺负或排斥。在深入的自我疗愈过程中，我感到我内心很多被压抑的愤怒和深层次的悲伤开始浮出水面。以前，我从概念上也知道要为自己设定界限（而不能一味忍让），但从能量的层面，我根本无法在现实场景中做到，因为我旧的模式已深深内化，存在于我的细胞记忆。但随着“同情密匙”（Compassion Key）练习的深入，我的业力能量得到了清理，生命深处最底层的能量又开始流动了。当我（从高我的能量）给予自己更多的同情时，我的情绪开始流动，我的愤怒以一种健康的方式表现出来，我开始在人们面前有意识地直接表达我的感受和情绪，包括（有时）对考古遗址现场的学生和同事。我开始更多地展示我真实的自我，这带来了很多好处——当我改变我的态度时，他们也改变了对我的态度，对我表现出更多的尊重。在其他场合和聚会上，我也从一个害羞、总是躲在角落里的女孩变成了一个更加自信、健谈的年轻教授。这是我的主要变化之一。
As the healing deepens with the work we are doing, and also the deep studies of the other spiritual teachers that I have been following, I gradually got out of the victimisation of “being suppressed by the university authority”. As I mentioned, I realized the deeper wounds inside of me that led me into the situation, which connected the trauma in my childhood, and why I got involved in the university job in the safe form, the unconscious wounds and motives made me into that, and the benefits I have out of this, and the drawbacks of having them in the form that I imagined before, I realised why the current situation is the most suitable for me, and I actually lack nothing in my world. As I gratefully accept it all, miracles happened: I got connected with two teachers who are experienced in guiding people to start spiritual healing business and they guided me step by step and re-start this work again..
随着疗愈的深入及跟随的其他精神导师的深度学习，我逐渐摆脱了“被大学权威压制”的受害感。正如我所提到的，我意识到是我内心深处的伤口导致我陷入那种感觉，这与我的童年的创伤经历有关。以及我意识到，为什么我会进入一个能给我带来安全感的大学工作，我无意识的创伤和动机、我从中得到的益处，及如果按照我以前想象中从事自由职业的缺点。我意识到了为什么现在的情况最适合我，我意识到实际上我的世界里其实什么都不缺。当我感激地接受这一切时，奇迹发生了：我与两个能够促进我重新开启精神疗愈工作的老师得到的链接。她们一步步指导我，重新开启了这份事业。
The other change is about my body. Previously, I had a stress-response pattern — I always squeeze my legs and put all my body weight onto my right bottom and leg every time I felt nervous, scared, and guilty. This made my spine twisted and the whole right side body blocked to some degree. As the healing deepened, I started to release this pattern and for two months now I have never had this destructive behavior anymore. Instead, I sensed the tingling sensations around my right bottom and legs and I know it’s the negativities stored in the cells of that area moving away little by little. It feels like the new energies are moving more smoothly and the blockages are cleared away gradually.
（课程所带来的）另一个变化是关于我的身体。以前（自从1-2岁起），我总有一个压力应激反应模式——每次我感到紧张、害怕和内疚时，我总是缠紧我的双腿，并把我身体所有的重量都挤压在我的右臀和腿上。这让我的脊椎扭曲，整个身体的右侧在一定程度上被阻塞。随着疗愈的加深，我开始释放这种压力模式，两个月来，我再也没有这种损害自己身体健康的行为了。相反，我感觉到了我的右臀和腿部周围的痒痒刺刺的感觉，我知道这是储存在细胞中的能量在流动，负面能量在逐渐消失。我感觉新能量运转得更顺畅了，堵塞逐渐被清除。
The other change was about money relationships and my future vision. Like many of you, I have a deep soul-level yearning to reach my full potential in life, in order to support major transformations on the planet. I used to spend a lot of money purchasing all kinds of online courses in order to improve myself. I got so addicted, I would often get a new one even before completing the ones I’d already got. I was also very susceptible to inducements to purchase products I didn’t actually need. However, I never believed that I could get my money back from unscrupulous online merchants who allured and induced me into buying the products that were actually of no benefit. As the clearing deepened, I gained a whole new understanding of myself and my abilities. In the last month, with the support of the police and the government, I’ve had tens of thousands yuan back from the fraudulent merchants who induced me into buying products of no worth to me.
另一个变化是关于金钱关系和我的未来。和你们当中的很多人一样，长期以来，我一直渴望自己的全部潜能得到全面的绽放。我曾经花了很多钱，买入市面上各种各样的课程。甚至一个还没有学，已经买入下一个。我也很容易受到各种各样的诱导，消费和购买很多其实我并不需要的东西。而我从来无法相信我能够从他们那里追回我的钱。随着清理和疗愈的深入，我有了新的意识和勇气。在警方和当地政府等的支持下，最近一个月我已追回了数万元。
In addition, I realized how devastating the current consumerist culture and money-oriented value system can be to humanity and Mother Earth. The marketing inundating the world everywhere, many of which use deceptive inducement tactics to promote sales, will destroy people’s independent minds and critical thinking, destroy Mother Earth and eventually the whole human race. But what I can contribute to the world, involves archaeological study with its roots in careful, independent and critical scientific research, are the teachings based on understanding of the history of the continuous interaction between the human race with the environment for tens of thousands of years, as well as those based on my learning of the true spiritual teachings from the most cutting-edge international teachers. What I can offer to the humanity and the entire planet would be much better than those of the old systems! I realised where my core value lies. I got more confident about myself and have a clearer vision about my future. I believe that all my lights and gifts will shine through step by step and make great contributions to the humanity and the planet, alongside which I would enjoy a beautiful and truly meaningful life.
此外，我意识到，当下盛行的消费主义和金钱至上文化会对整个人类和地球母亲造成多么毁灭性的影响。而市面上所充斥的无处不在的营销将毁掉人们的独立意识和批判性思维，毁掉地球母亲和整个人类。而我将给人类和世界带来的，是基于谨慎、独立，和批判性思维的科学研究，是基于人类与环境数万年以来互动历史的考古学探索，是基于我跟国际最前沿的导师学习到的真正的精神教导。我将提供给人类和整个地球的，要比旧有的价值观念和体系好得多得多！我意识到了我的核心价值在哪里，我对这个世界的核心贡献将在哪里。我对自己更有信心，对自己的末来有了更清晰的愿景。我相信我的光芒和才华会一步一步地闪耀，为人类和地球做出巨大的贡献的同时，将享受美好而真正富有意义的生活。
Another change is about romantic relationship. I have completely ended a toxic relationship and now opened myself up for my real soulmate. I realised that my previous boyfriend just placed me in a secondary place comparing to his “core family”, because he married before and divorced and had a daughter, and it’s a repetition of the childhood me feeling being placed in a secondary place in my foster mother’s family and can never get what I really need and want. So I discovered I deserve much more than that, and now I am actively preparing myself and looking for my soulmate.
还有一个变化是关于浪漫关系。我已经完全结束了一段有害的关系，现在为我为我真正的灵魂伴侣敞开心扉。我意识到，与他的“核心家庭”相比，我的前男友只是把我放在了次要位置，因为他离过婚，还有一个女儿，而这是童年时期我在养父母家庭中被置于次要位置、永远无法得到我真正需要和想要的东西的感觉的重现。所以我发现我值得更好的，现在我正在积极准备并寻找灵魂伴侣。
The other positive change is that I have got extremely good relationships now with my mother, father, and all my relatives in the extended families. The cousins, aunties, my old grandpa, grandma and even the little nephews started to show a lot of respect to me and none of them dare to bully me or say anything bad about me anymore. I was able to give them a lessen and teach them how to behave when needed, and also play with them happily when I have the mood. They also started to admire what I told them, because they found my words have real value and trustworthy.
最后一个积极的变化是：我现在与我的母亲、父亲、以及大家族中的所有亲戚的关系都变得非常好。我的表姐妹、表兄弟、阿姨、爷爷、奶奶，甚至小侄子们都开始对我表现出极大的尊重。他们开始钦佩我，因为他们发现我教授给他们的东西真正有价值且可信。
In sum, I hope my change brings light to you all, and also I want to say a big THANK YOU to you all for supporting me along the way. In fact, I found it most helpful when I keep doing short cut and long form for myself in combination with exchanging sessions with others, because sometimes other people can help me see the hidden block that I can’t see myself. I am deeply grateful for my experience here and send my BEST WISHES to you all!!
总而言之，我希望我的改变能给大家带来光亮，也想对你们所有人说声谢谢，感谢你们对我一路以来的支持。事实上，我发现当我持续地与同学们互相疗愈，并持续为自己做捷径疗愈法和深度清理时是最有效的。因为有时，其他人可以帮助我发现自己看不到的隐性障碍。我深深地感激我的这些经历，并向大家致以最美好的祝福！